Amends

**I've been composing this post in my head for what seems like weeks now, but it'll still probably come out a jumble**

Despite how great it feels to have ones future secure, there's a few things that are getting me down.
I mentioned briefly a while back that I had a friend back, who I'd drifted from. Unfortunately the situation quickly deteriorated and I am no longer on speaking terms with this person, however I am aware of the possibility that they might read this blog, judging from the polite and warm text message I was sent regarding my success in finding a job. So I hope that they do read this.

I have missed this friend a lot over the last few weeks, and my current geographical isolation hasn't provided much distraction to what feels like a gaping hole in my life. I know the things that we both said to hurt each other where in the heat of the moment, and I know that in the interests of both parties it is best for us not to try to speak again for a long time; things tend to get heated and we can not see eye to eye.

However through this post I hope to be able to convince this person that I truly am sorry for the way things have turned out, but that I am not under any pretence trying to drag open old wounds. I just want to let this person know, in civil tones, that I wish them all the best in the world, that they are dear to me as only a best friend can be, but that I know we only hurt each other when we are in direct contact.

So I am not trying to renew our acquaintance, or have a dig, or a go, or try to drag this person down, but I don't want to harbour ill will, and hope that they don't either.

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